It’ll never get easier
Something’s will never change
I’ve tried my hardest
But I still see you have little interest
In a future with me
And all it took was me getting the guts to pull back
For you to finally call and tell me you were finally starting to feel something again.
It took months of me crying
And getting sick
And doing my best
And putting up with you being an asshole to prove a point.
Finally when I tell myself I don’t deserve to live my life on the back burner of yours.
Finally waiting for the day you decide you want me.
I’m so tired of you telling me I’m playing games.
I’m tired of feeling like the punch line of all your jokes
Oh now your jealous?
Oh now you want me?
Are you fucking serious? This is how it’s always been
The moment I take a step back
You take one forward.
Why? to pull me back in?
Maybe it’s time you prove your worth all this time I’m wasting.